Oh the magic of Christmas

Well, Christmas is almost here. I dont have that warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach so far. Which worries me. I think I am getting apathetic towards "special days" I didnt feel any excitment for my birthday this year. Am I just dead inside or has the christmas angel just not visited me yet?

I know one of the important meanings of life. Show those you care about how much you care about them. Because you never know. I guess that is one of my fears. I will die and I will be forgotten. And no one wil realize all the feelings I had. You can only do so much you know.


I stuffed the dogs' stockings last night. Jason said they might notice and not think santa did it. I am willing to take the chance. They look so cute all stuffed to the brim with bones and treats sticking out.

Jason finished wrapping all his presents last night. It is very full under the tree. We still have to get one more for my grandmother, one for aunt terri and uncle jerri, and for melissa and TJ.

I think we are going to go to the mall tonight or tommorow. We'll see.